This panting is the result of a process of being conscious which is represented by the bed, the geometric forms with different colors and levels, including the color of the bed, the illumination of the room and the black phone.
With these symbols, I am expressing how we can go from inside to the outside of our own levels of consciousness. So, the bed is the vehicle that we can communicate with ourselves through dreaming. When we encounter our oneself we can see in our dream the uneven levels of consciousness we are in at the present time. When we wake up we feel and perceive that those geometric forms which surround us are uneven. Forms that are almost square others almost rectangular and others almost angular forms like pieces of a puzzle that do not have relation one with the other. The colors do not combine as neither the forms, there is disorder. We should commence putting together our thoughts, our feelings, our intuition and our knowledge in a correct place that can find a way to harmonize the colorful forms, our personality. Giving to the personality a rhythm that we did not know was concealed inside of us. And when we awake into the new beginning we have received information how to balance ourselves and can apply it if we ask our inner self.
The black telephone off the hook signifying an open communication where there is no limit to the time for us to commence seeing our levels of consciousness. To start a sincere narration with ourselves and be willing to accept our state of consciousness and continue the communication with an opportunity to recognize every call from our dreams. Even as we now know that we must have a better transmission between our inner being we have to attend the division existing in our emotions and thoughts. The communicator waiting on the receptor to listen.
The light in the room represents sunrise, morning, a new beginning, to wake up and start a new way to implement what we learned about ourselves. Directing us with our ideas and goals expressing who we really are in relationship with the colors of our own being.
My painting is the expression of thoughts and emotions fusing into the spirit. The emotions are portrayed as the log in flames, energy and thoughts are represented by the other log, direction. The several waves of colors within the heart represent the depth that we can go into the chambers of the heart, the depth of our will. Through the infinite fire causing a fusion and feeling the presence of the Great Spirit as represented in the form of music coming out from the heart to make it an instrument of the Great Spirit.
The emotions which block our love and thoughts distract us from love. Both energy and direction must surrender to the will of love. By going beyond the limits of a constant anticipation of thoughts and emotions and not being permitted to act over one’s will. Taking the contradictory emotions and thoughts to the heart, the heart being the catalyst ignites them so they disintegrate in the flames.
Through the infinite fire causing a fusion as well as feeling the presence of the Great Spirit, represented in the form of music coming out from the heart to make us an instrument. When we discover that we can feel the consciousness of the music of the heart without limitations then we are letting our Great Spirit guide us to know the music of genuine love in our destiny. Genuine love is when we have connected entirely with our own self in thought, emotion, and action while changing our chemistry. We change our energy by perceiving our mind and its behavior, by doing without expectations, not imagining a result of this experience because it is beyond the mind and physical state. To go only with the purpose to know one’s self. We start feeling the ecstasy of pure energy which is the Great Spirit.
My inspiration in painting ‘Fusion’ is from my experience pursuing to find genuine love. I found that genuine love is when I am connected to the pure energy of the Great Spirit that has no chemistry, emotions neither any expectations, thoughts.
This painting is the expression of a process change in my conscious as caused by observing my emotions.
The rats are depicting the variety of complexes we have such as fear, greed, hate, anxiety, etc., growing in an occult place inside our body like in a basement as is depicted in the painting. The food the rats are eating in the basement represents our complexes taking our vitality and strength. The window allows tenuous light to enter the basement symbolizing the first calling of conscious.
Even though, we do not like to hear their bothersome noise, we do not want to be aware of our complexes, we ignore and let them develop into something else. Let us say, greediness brings fear if we do not accumulate more of what we want, fear brings anxiety and so on. By permitting that kind of noise to continue, we are not able to listen to the subtle murmur of our intuition which is trying to enlighten our complete being.
The figure shedding light onto the basement symbolizes the self-discovery, being conscious of its complexes. I would like to converse about being conscious of our complexes. We feel disturbing that something is not right inside of us, but we do not understand what it is. It is annoying that it is tearing and exhausting us. It comes from a place that is part of us. It makes an irritating noise but we like that noise which make us deaf because we do not want to know what is the noise. For instance, avarice steals a great amount of one’s vitality and we do not dare to see that to be avaricious is what is taking our food and is involved with fear resembling a gratification, believing that having more and more we will feel a sense of completeness and the fear that is a companion with avarice will again take more food from us. Is not it?
The tenuous light entering our conscious moving us to remove the obscuration of our well being. The first time its call implies if we do not listen completely to the irritating noise and go to the deepest place in us, our basement, it will degenerate into something worse, to fatten the rats. Doesn’t it?
As well as, we do not want to perceive and do not want to search inside one’s basement and understand what type of reality is taking our power and distorting it incessantly toward an insane place sensing complete anguish and resentment. Observing what is inside of that occult place in us, we can start letting go of the misery and feeling free of the terrible noise. There is a perpetual sparkle waiting for us to reflect its knowledge in us and restore us.